Sunday, July 22, 2012
i really don't wanna despair so often, but i just cannot help it.
the road ahead looks so dark and bleak, and i go to sleep every night with the thought that i will not be able to complete my requirements, and i will not be able to find enough f/f patients, my patients will not be motivated enough to brush properly and then cannot clear OHP blah blah. so many things to complete, but only so little time...
i feel depressed constantly, if not depressed, then i'm angsty. and it's not good for me, or for the people around me.
i feel like i'm doing my best alr, and giving my all, but even my best is just not good enough. where to go from here?
i like to think that people understand my woes, but sadly, most people don't. non-dental ppl can sympathise, but only to a small degree, and i can understand because this sort of thing is not easy to empathise with, unless you've gone through the experience yourself. some dental ppl cannot understand too, cos life is just really smooth for them and they've never had to experience a lot of shit in dental sch. then there's those who are on the same boat as you, but you feel bad whining too much after a while, because hey, they're in the same situation but they don't even whine as much as you, so oh gosh, what a weakling you must be! at the end of the day, very few people understand, and i'm just left to deal with all my woes alone, in the dark recesses of my mind, when i'm not having to study or do labwork or schedule appts and plan treatments, yada yada.
i hate my life omg.
